Working with Spirit and spirit guides is always an interesting and often surprising experience. In the relationship so much is down to trust and going with the flow that often where I am and what I am doing is both hard to predict and unexpected.
Recently I have felt very closed down, work has been quiet and my contact with my guides minimal. This wasn't something that I decided but rather something that crept up on me. I hadn't realised what had happened until I was almost out the other side in fact, although I had been aware of how 'ordinary' and 'normal' my life had been for a while.
A push from a friend in need today had me back working with my guides and in doing so I learnt why I had been closed down and that this had been necessary for me.
I suspect I am almost over the worst now. Although they often annoy me, now I am aware of how little I have 'seen' my guides I realise I have missed them. It si good to be back in contact again and I look forward to seeing where they take me next.
Saturday, 13 August 2011
Monday, 25 July 2011
I didn't mean to be here today but no matter where I tried to go I ended up back here. This is what happens when you follow your intuition your inner knowing because although I have no idea why I am here I trust that all is about to be revealed.
I have just realised that my Native American guide, who I am now assuming has something to say to me that he feels is worth sharing with those of you who are reading this, is here with me. He knows his audience is small but tells me that sometimes a small select audience is more powerful that a whole room filled with people.
'Go deep, deep within yourself and when you are there, then listen. Words of wisdom are sometimes hard to hear for they are the words that we ignore because they are difficult or which ask us to do difficult things. This is no accident for so often that which is easy is not worth doing for we have already learnt all there is to know about it. When something is hard there is learning and healing to be found and in the struggle real insight and wisdom may be found. Do not shy away from or ignore the difficult tasks or messages but be strong and face them head on.'
I have just realised that my Native American guide, who I am now assuming has something to say to me that he feels is worth sharing with those of you who are reading this, is here with me. He knows his audience is small but tells me that sometimes a small select audience is more powerful that a whole room filled with people.
'Go deep, deep within yourself and when you are there, then listen. Words of wisdom are sometimes hard to hear for they are the words that we ignore because they are difficult or which ask us to do difficult things. This is no accident for so often that which is easy is not worth doing for we have already learnt all there is to know about it. When something is hard there is learning and healing to be found and in the struggle real insight and wisdom may be found. Do not shy away from or ignore the difficult tasks or messages but be strong and face them head on.'
Wednesday, 20 July 2011
Frustration
When we listen to our guides it can be quite frustrating the direction they take us in. Take the last few days for example.
First I listened when they persuaded me to start a blog, dreaming about blogs was the final straw here. Not content with that however they then lead me to twitter, and from twitter to create links to my website and Facebook. Not content with that I was then encouraged to start a second blog related to my work which meant changing information, links etc.
Now today, in order to maintain contacts I am sat trying to download something from Google which I suspect is going to throw out a few things and cause me yet more problems to solve.
Maybe my guides think that I don't have enough to do or that I need a challenge. Whatever they are thinking it has created more and more work for me and left me feeling frustrated at the path I have been lead down.
But I know that I am only seeing the small details whereas they have, or at least I hope they have, the bigger picture so I guess, like with so much else I will just have to trust them. Probably in about 5 years all of this will make sense and I will see what they are putting me through all of this.
First I listened when they persuaded me to start a blog, dreaming about blogs was the final straw here. Not content with that however they then lead me to twitter, and from twitter to create links to my website and Facebook. Not content with that I was then encouraged to start a second blog related to my work which meant changing information, links etc.
Now today, in order to maintain contacts I am sat trying to download something from Google which I suspect is going to throw out a few things and cause me yet more problems to solve.
Maybe my guides think that I don't have enough to do or that I need a challenge. Whatever they are thinking it has created more and more work for me and left me feeling frustrated at the path I have been lead down.
But I know that I am only seeing the small details whereas they have, or at least I hope they have, the bigger picture so I guess, like with so much else I will just have to trust them. Probably in about 5 years all of this will make sense and I will see what they are putting me through all of this.
Saturday, 16 July 2011
The Sound of Silence
Sat in the garden enjoying the sunshine and a cup of tea I was also revelling in what I thought was complete silence....until I listened that is.
As soon as I did I heard all that made up the sound of silence. At first I became aware of the chatter of the birds, then the whisper of a gentle breeze through the bamboo and a rustling of the leaves of our many ash trees. And finally the munching of cows in the field next to us, A soft rhythmic satisfied sound as they bit and chewed on the plentiful grass.
So not silence at all.
If we sit quietly and focus on ourselves and the silence within our own bodies and minds we may also find that the sound of silence isn't silence at all. The chattering of my mind may become so still I hear nothing at all there but I can still hear the soft beating of my heart, sometimes reverberating through my body. Sometimes I can hear my own breath or the blood moving through me.
So not silence at all.
What does your sound of silence sound like?
As soon as I did I heard all that made up the sound of silence. At first I became aware of the chatter of the birds, then the whisper of a gentle breeze through the bamboo and a rustling of the leaves of our many ash trees. And finally the munching of cows in the field next to us, A soft rhythmic satisfied sound as they bit and chewed on the plentiful grass.
So not silence at all.
If we sit quietly and focus on ourselves and the silence within our own bodies and minds we may also find that the sound of silence isn't silence at all. The chattering of my mind may become so still I hear nothing at all there but I can still hear the soft beating of my heart, sometimes reverberating through my body. Sometimes I can hear my own breath or the blood moving through me.
So not silence at all.
What does your sound of silence sound like?
Monday, 11 July 2011
Being Still
I am slowly learning how my guides are going to help me with these blogs. Today I have been given the title so now I'm hoping they leap to my rescue and tell me what to write. But of course, in order to hear them and also to write, first I must be still.
Being still is not a state that comes naturally to me I'm afraid. Reiki has helped with this as I am happy to be still whilst giving myself Reiki, but it is still not an easy state for me to be in otherwise.
I do understand though, that while I am busy rushing around it is very hard for me not to miss things. I also skim when I am rushing rather than looking, reading, or listening carefully. If I am still then I am far more likely to see or hear what is really there, rather than what my busy mind wishes to be there.
Life is busy, we make it busier still, or at least I do. Taking time to be still brings us to the centre of ourselves and in that stillness we can reach deeply within, often finding a real sense of peace there. Our minds still and quieten, we let go of all the noise that is constantly in our heads, all the worry, stress and tension drains away and we drop naturally into that place where we can become one with our true selves, our essence.
With patience and practice of sitting in the stillness we can also allow ourselves to connect with the part of us that knows everything. And so, in the stillness can also find awareness and the answers to everything, not by asking others but by tapping into the knowledge and wisdom that lies within ourselves.
Being still is not a state that comes naturally to me I'm afraid. Reiki has helped with this as I am happy to be still whilst giving myself Reiki, but it is still not an easy state for me to be in otherwise.
I do understand though, that while I am busy rushing around it is very hard for me not to miss things. I also skim when I am rushing rather than looking, reading, or listening carefully. If I am still then I am far more likely to see or hear what is really there, rather than what my busy mind wishes to be there.
Life is busy, we make it busier still, or at least I do. Taking time to be still brings us to the centre of ourselves and in that stillness we can reach deeply within, often finding a real sense of peace there. Our minds still and quieten, we let go of all the noise that is constantly in our heads, all the worry, stress and tension drains away and we drop naturally into that place where we can become one with our true selves, our essence.
With patience and practice of sitting in the stillness we can also allow ourselves to connect with the part of us that knows everything. And so, in the stillness can also find awareness and the answers to everything, not by asking others but by tapping into the knowledge and wisdom that lies within ourselves.
Thursday, 7 July 2011
On being misunderstood
I was thinking just now about how, even after all this time of working on myself, small things still manage to wind me up and frustrate me. Things like having to explain the same thing in several different ways to someone and not because it's complicated, but because they are not really listening.
Sometimes I wonder if I am speaking a different language or something. You know the men are from Mars, the Women from Venus kind of thing. (A little voice in my ear has just said that I am. Great!)What if that was true? What if I had carried back from my travels a new language, one that no-one recognised or understood? No-one living in the same house as me that is, I am sure complete strangers would understand me, just not family! Somedays this is exactly how it feels.
This all got me thinking about how easily we misunderstand each other. How often we assume we know what someone has said only to later find they had said something completely different. Or we assume that someone has understood us with disastrous or potentially disastrous consequences, or even little annoying ones.
One of the things my guides are working with me on is the ability (or lack of it) to completely focus on one thing at a time, one thing and one thing only. A strange thing to have to do after years of multi-tasking but I am beginning to see why being able to focus is important.
My guides tell me it is important to focus on one thing at a time because then they can help us more effectively. When we are scattered or doing one thing whilst we think of something else it can be hard to hear them, hard for them to get through to us. I think this applies to much in our lives.
If we actually stopped and gave each other, especially those in our families, our undivided attention, focusing completely on them and what they were saying, then maybe the language barrier would break down and we would find ourselves able to understand each other completely. Worth a try anyway.
Sometimes I wonder if I am speaking a different language or something. You know the men are from Mars, the Women from Venus kind of thing. (A little voice in my ear has just said that I am. Great!)What if that was true? What if I had carried back from my travels a new language, one that no-one recognised or understood? No-one living in the same house as me that is, I am sure complete strangers would understand me, just not family! Somedays this is exactly how it feels.
This all got me thinking about how easily we misunderstand each other. How often we assume we know what someone has said only to later find they had said something completely different. Or we assume that someone has understood us with disastrous or potentially disastrous consequences, or even little annoying ones.
One of the things my guides are working with me on is the ability (or lack of it) to completely focus on one thing at a time, one thing and one thing only. A strange thing to have to do after years of multi-tasking but I am beginning to see why being able to focus is important.
My guides tell me it is important to focus on one thing at a time because then they can help us more effectively. When we are scattered or doing one thing whilst we think of something else it can be hard to hear them, hard for them to get through to us. I think this applies to much in our lives.
If we actually stopped and gave each other, especially those in our families, our undivided attention, focusing completely on them and what they were saying, then maybe the language barrier would break down and we would find ourselves able to understand each other completely. Worth a try anyway.
Tuesday, 5 July 2011
My Guides
It only seems right if they are making me blog that I share a little about my guides. These are not guides I meet when journeying shamanically, although I may also meet some of them there, but guides that hang around me in Ordinary Reality. I can feel some of them behind me looking over my shoulder as I blog and am expecting a quick tap at some point to let me know I've overstepped the mark or got something completely wrong.
As I said before each of my guides seems to have their very own role as far as I'm concerned. They tell me I am family, all I can say is it's a motley collection of family but of course like all families, very precious. Phew, they liked that last bit.
I have a main guide who I think of as my 'Master' in the broadest sense of the word. He is also my gatekeeper, stops me being hassled at times and also speaks on behalf of the collective when they all seem to want to shout at me. (Sorry, they never shout, they just speak clearly)
Then there is my Native American guide who says I can't mention his name here, and my medicine woman, both of whom guide me and try and lead me gently or even very firmly when I don't want to go.
I have two that are clearly with me mainly as teachers or mentors (here I am being told that they are all here to teach me. Apparently I need all the help I can get! ) and work in completely different areas of my life.
I then have others who pop by now and then. One that brings messages, one that helps me in one specific area of my work when I get stuck, and others whom are around when I need them.
I also have one I don't see at present. She vanished having told me her work with me was over - for now, which sounded a little ominous. I'm sure she will be back.
The room is very hot now and very crowded which is how it can get sometimes. I haven't felt a spiritual tap, nudge or prod so I guess they are happy with what I've said. They'd soon have let me know if they weren't.
As I said before each of my guides seems to have their very own role as far as I'm concerned. They tell me I am family, all I can say is it's a motley collection of family but of course like all families, very precious. Phew, they liked that last bit.
I have a main guide who I think of as my 'Master' in the broadest sense of the word. He is also my gatekeeper, stops me being hassled at times and also speaks on behalf of the collective when they all seem to want to shout at me. (Sorry, they never shout, they just speak clearly)
Then there is my Native American guide who says I can't mention his name here, and my medicine woman, both of whom guide me and try and lead me gently or even very firmly when I don't want to go.
I have two that are clearly with me mainly as teachers or mentors (here I am being told that they are all here to teach me. Apparently I need all the help I can get! ) and work in completely different areas of my life.
I then have others who pop by now and then. One that brings messages, one that helps me in one specific area of my work when I get stuck, and others whom are around when I need them.
I also have one I don't see at present. She vanished having told me her work with me was over - for now, which sounded a little ominous. I'm sure she will be back.
The room is very hot now and very crowded which is how it can get sometimes. I haven't felt a spiritual tap, nudge or prod so I guess they are happy with what I've said. They'd soon have let me know if they weren't.
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